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These past few months, I’ve felt called to remember the vision I received again. This time I’ve been contemplating the word I received that day: Neglect.
I’ve been creating more awareness on all the ways I’ve neglected myself over the years, how I’m still neglecting myself, and how I am deciding to show up for myself from now on.
I noticed how I had given my power away to authority figures and never really learned to tap into my innate, inner, God given and God guided authority.
I noticed how I put people up on pedestals for way too long.
I noticed how I had given up on Life after my best friend passed away.
I noticed how in the past I settled so many times, and primarily in relationships.
I noticed how I wasn’t currently thrilled with what I’m doing “for a living,” and kept waiting to get permission from others to move onto something new.
I noticed how I had been listening to what everyone else was advising me over what I really wanted to do next.
The list goes on, but you get the idea.
I used to think that all of these areas I was neglecting was the right thing to do. That it was what I was supposed to do.
That the Christian thing was to put myself last and/or even deny myself to the point where I completely neglected myself.
God has taught me that that is NOT what He meant with the whole concept of “deny yourself.”
There was a lot to dig into and this time I didn’t have to do it alone. I learned to invite God into the process and the results have been mind blowing.